In all my years, I’ve never actually thought about if I’m too far or too behind of my time. It’s only until I turned 25 last month that I’ve been constantly thinking about my future. Your mid-twenties are by far the weirdest times of your life. Some of my friends have families, others are married, some have successful businesses and are doing amazing things in the community, and some are, of course, still doing the same things we used to do back in high school. What an odd time to be alive.
I know I’ve accomplished a lot for my age and 18 year old me would be screaming with excitement at this point but I still have the feeling that time is ticking and I need to get on with everything! For the past three weeks I’ve been thinking more about what I need to do rather than what I’ve already done. It’s been a constant battle between - How old will I be when I have kids? I don’t want to be an old mom. When will I get married? But I want to travel more before I create a family. Where will I find time to do all this AND have a fashion business? When I going to fully be emerged into my career? Oh the anxiety.
In a world full of different opinions and a constant reminder of what everyone else is doing (social media), it’s easy to get discouraged about your own journey. It doesn’t matter if you have everything together because the illusion of a perfect life doesn’t exist. I was trying to give myself a scheduled time for all these events that are supposed to come naturally, simply because of what I saw others experiencing around me. Once I calmed down, I realized that you really have to just sit back and trust the process. Everything happens for a reason and when the time comes, it will come. What you think you’re ready for now, you may not be and that’s exactly why it hasn’t happened yet. Ideally, nobody is ahead or behind anyone when it comes to life. Everyone’s different and where we are right now is exactly where we’re supposed to be at that given time, don’t question it.